Comments for Running For My Mom http://runningformymom.wordpress.com Raising Money and Awareness for Pancreatic Cancer - And Doing It For My Mom, Who Is Living With The Disease Wed, 20 Aug 2008 05:12:07 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=MU Comment on Info About Pancreatic Cancer & Why It Sucks by Marilyn http://runningformymom.wordpress.com/pancreatic-cancer-why-it-sucks-ass/#comment-4381 Marilyn Sat, 26 Jul 2008 06:08:19 +0000 https://runningformymom.wordpress.com/pancreatic-cancer-why-it-sucks-ass/#comment-4381 I just read the story about Randy Paush and it brought me to tears. In 2 days it will be 2 years that my wonderful father died. He was diagnosed in June of 2006 and died in July 2006 - I only got a few weeks to say goodby to such a wonderful man. I think not a moment goes by that my family misses him. He was so much a part of our lives. In that year, I must say God did bless me with sharing special moments with him. I bought him for Christmas a ticket to the Food Network Food and Wine festival. He loved to cook and learn new things. I never saw him so happy. We truly enjoyed that event and it is something I will always carry in my heart. Also, that March he decided to take the day off and go to Grandparents day at my children's school. He always worked so hard when we were growing up, but was always there for the us and the grandkids. I like to think that God told him to spend some "quality time" with my mom and my children. I have a picture of my parents with my 2 beautiful children on that day. My dad has a big smile and the four of them are so happy. It is one of my favorite pictures. I also have the last family portrait taken only 2 months before he died. We celebrated my son's First Communion. The whole family was there and it was a special day - Again I thank God for those memories. I must agree that Pancreatic Cancer SUCKS - but my father believed that he lived a good life and faced his death with dignity. One day he was talking and the next he just fell asleep. I can only hope to have such a peaceful death when facing a truly painful and horrible disease. We thougth he had 6 months so I had to go away for work. But towards the end of 2 weeks of training, I had to rush home because the Dr's said he was going to die any day. I had 7 days to tell him that I was so proud that he was my Dad. He said why, he was just an ordinary man, and I said no he wasn't. I must say that both he and us expected a long, painful death. But again God was smiling on him and allowed him to have little pain and just fall asleep with all his family beside him. Even after almost 2 years, I still cry. I cry even writing this knowing that he will never see his 3rd grandchild, or see my daughter start High School and my son Middle School next year. However, we have had some positive come out of this. My brother decided after 15 years of marriage to have a child. He told my father of their plans before he died. I think that my dad's illness put things into perspective for them. I also believe, that my Dad is our guardian angel and looking after us. Even though my sister-in-law is considered a high risk pregnancy, she has had an easy time and is due in October. It will be a boy, and now the family name will live on. I hope he looks like my dad. I know that my son has so much of him, it makes me think that he is still around. He loves to give hugs and tell you he loves you, just like my father use to. I think at times that it is partly my dad giving me the hugs too. My daughter also misses my dad so much. Even after 2 years sleeps with my father's last shirt in her bed, just to feel him around. She even makes sure that my mom is not lonely and goes over and spends the night often. It is just a testiment to the fact that my father and mother were always there for us. It kills me that so little money is spent to cure the 4TH LEADING CANCER. - How many more beautiful people have to die before more is done to cure this. I just read the story about Randy Paush and it brought me to tears. In 2 days it will be 2 years that my wonderful father died. He was diagnosed in June of 2006 and died in July 2006 - I only got a few weeks to say goodby to such a wonderful man. I think not a moment goes by that my family misses him. He was so much a part of our lives. In that year, I must say God did bless me with sharing special moments with him. I bought him for Christmas a ticket to the Food Network Food and Wine festival. He loved to cook and learn new things. I never saw him so happy. We truly enjoyed that event and it is something I will always carry in my heart. Also, that March he decided to take the day off and go to Grandparents day at my children’s school. He always worked so hard when we were growing up, but was always there for the us and the grandkids. I like to think that God told him to spend some “quality time” with my mom and my children. I have a picture of my parents with my 2 beautiful children on that day. My dad has a big smile and the four of them are so happy. It is one of my favorite pictures. I also have the last family portrait taken only 2 months before he died. We celebrated my son’s First Communion. The whole family was there and it was a special day - Again I thank God for those memories. I must agree that Pancreatic Cancer SUCKS - but my father believed that he lived a good life and faced his death with dignity. One day he was talking and the next he just fell asleep. I can only hope to have such a peaceful death when facing a truly painful and horrible disease. We thougth he had 6 months so I had to go away for work. But towards the end of 2 weeks of training, I had to rush home because the Dr’s said he was going to die any day. I had 7 days to tell him that I was so proud that he was my Dad. He said why, he was just an ordinary man, and I said no he wasn’t. I must say that both he and us expected a long, painful death. But again God was smiling on him and allowed him to have little pain and just fall asleep with all his family beside him. Even after almost 2 years, I still cry. I cry even writing this knowing that he will never see his 3rd grandchild, or see my daughter start High School and my son Middle School next year. However, we have had some positive come out of this. My brother decided after 15 years of marriage to have a child. He told my father of their plans before he died. I think that my dad’s illness put things into perspective for them. I also believe, that my Dad is our guardian angel and looking after us. Even though my sister-in-law is considered a high risk pregnancy, she has had an easy time and is due in October. It will be a boy, and now the family name will live on. I hope he looks like my dad. I know that my son has so much of him, it makes me think that he is still around. He loves to give hugs and tell you he loves you, just like my father use to. I think at times that it is partly my dad giving me the hugs too. My daughter also misses my dad so much. Even after 2 years sleeps with my father’s last shirt in her bed, just to feel him around. She even makes sure that my mom is not lonely and goes over and spends the night often. It is just a testiment to the fact that my father and mother were always there for us. It kills me that so little money is spent to cure the 4TH LEADING CANCER. - How many more beautiful people have to die before more is done to cure this.

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]]> Comment on Info About Pancreatic Cancer & Why It Sucks by Donna http://runningformymom.wordpress.com/pancreatic-cancer-why-it-sucks-ass/#comment-4316 Donna Sat, 21 Jun 2008 00:57:33 +0000 https://runningformymom.wordpress.com/pancreatic-cancer-why-it-sucks-ass/#comment-4316 Like everyone else, I too lost my mother to PC. She had been a diabetic for over 30 years and controlling her sugar level was a nightmare,but she tried as best she could. My mother passed on May 27th,2008. We knew she she wasn't feeling well and complaining about her back and the pain,but we thought she had pulled a muscle from a recent vacation. We took her to the ER and the next day they did a CT scan and found a 6mm lump in her liver. They wanted a biopsy,but her blood was too thin. They gave her 8 bags of plasma over three days and then they decided to transfer her to a major university hospital. The biopsy was done on a Friday,she was released on Saturday to a nursing home. On Sunday,my father saw a vision from God and got her home that day. She died at home in her bed 2 days later. The sad part is no doctor ever confirmed pancreatic cancer until after her death. The results came back the day she died. A hospice nurse that was working at the hospital told me that my mother was terminally ill and that the doctors would not tall me until they were 100% sure. She knew,as she had seen the chart and was a hospice nurse for 8 years. I thanked her,called my sisters,told my dad and from that day forward until she died we did anything she needed and never left her alone. I never told her she was dying because I knew she couldn't handle it. My mom waited for my sister coming from Missouri to drive into the driveway in AZ. She glanced at her,opened her eye and gave three last breaths I will never forget the sound. She never cried about the pain. I am glad that God answered my one paryer: The Monday night before she passed,I told him I knew he had to take her,but please do not make her suffer and do it soon. Within 24 hours she was gone. I know he has her and she is cancer and pain free. Intresting and yet confusing and I may never have an answer. My mom was having a conversation with my dad and in mid sentence she told him the pain was bad and then she went unconsciouness. The coroner ruled heart failure,but she didn't have any symptoms of a heart attack. She just closed her eyes and went into very shallow breaths until my sister came into the room,which was a minute or two after closing her eyes. I truly believe she waited to make sure my sister was home safely and then when she knew,she let go and God brought her home. Life is difficult and I am guessing only time can help. I have emotions running through my head that I never knew I had. Amazing how people take life for granted and all we want is another day with the one we lost. Like everyone else, I too lost my mother to PC. She had been a diabetic for over 30 years and controlling her sugar level was a nightmare,but she tried as best she could. My mother passed on May 27th,2008. We knew she she wasn’t feeling well and complaining about her back and the pain,but we thought she had pulled a muscle from a recent vacation. We took her to the ER and the next day they did a CT scan and found a 6mm lump in her liver. They wanted a biopsy,but her blood was too thin. They gave her 8 bags of plasma over three days and then they decided to transfer her to a major university hospital. The biopsy was done on a Friday,she was released on Saturday to a nursing home. On Sunday,my father saw a vision from God and got her home that day. She died at home in her bed 2 days later. The sad part is no doctor ever confirmed pancreatic cancer until after her death. The results came back the day she died. A hospice nurse that was working at the hospital told me that my mother was terminally ill and that the doctors would not tall me until they were 100% sure. She knew,as she had seen the chart and was a hospice nurse for 8 years. I thanked her,called my sisters,told my dad and from that day forward until she died we did anything she needed and never left her alone. I never told her she was dying because I knew she couldn’t handle it. My mom waited for my sister coming from Missouri to drive into the driveway in AZ. She glanced at her,opened her eye and gave three last breaths I will never forget the sound. She never cried about the pain. I am glad that God answered my one paryer: The Monday night before she passed,I told him I knew he had to take her,but please do not make her suffer and do it soon. Within 24 hours she was gone. I know he has her and she is cancer and pain free. Intresting and yet confusing and I may never have an answer. My mom was having a conversation with my dad and in mid sentence she told him the pain was bad and then she went unconsciouness. The coroner ruled heart failure,but she didn’t have any symptoms of a heart attack. She just closed her eyes and went into very shallow breaths until my sister came into the room,which was a minute or two after closing her eyes. I truly believe she waited to make sure my sister was home safely and then when she knew,she let go and God brought her home. Life is difficult and I am guessing only time can help. I have emotions running through my head that I never knew I had. Amazing how people take life for granted and all we want is another day with the one we lost.

]]> Comment on Info About Pancreatic Cancer & Why It Sucks by nicole harrigan http://runningformymom.wordpress.com/pancreatic-cancer-why-it-sucks-ass/#comment-4303 nicole harrigan Tue, 17 Jun 2008 04:14:35 +0000 https://runningformymom.wordpress.com/pancreatic-cancer-why-it-sucks-ass/#comment-4303 My dad was diagnosed with PC 18th April 08 and passed away 19th May 08. 1 day and 1 month he lived. I am still coming to terms that he is no longer here and that he had to die the way he did. He was 66 years old, fit and ate all the right foods. There needs to be more research made into this disease as once it gets hold of you there is no time for anything. He didnt even get a chance of having chemo. We were told he had 3 - 6 months to live, not even close. Although I live interstate from my family we saw each other every 6 - 8 weeks for a week or two at a time. My two boys almost 3 (twins) were the apple of my dad's eyes, vica versa. This is one of the saddest things about it, is all he wanted to do was to see the boys turn 21. We had only been down there to visit 2 weeks before. He was admitted to hospital on the Thursday as he was having trouble breathing, from Thursday til we got there Sunday he had detiorated terribly. He fought all the way til the end, never shed a tear. He waited til we got there to see the boys for one last time. He passed 27 hours after my arrival with my mum, my neice and I by his side. I will never forget how much I wanted him to just go to sleep and no longer be in pain. I feel for all of you who have lost and who have this terrible disease. Rest now dad, love you allways xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx My dad was diagnosed with PC 18th April 08 and passed away 19th May 08. 1 day and 1 month he lived. I am still coming to terms that he is no longer here and that he had to die the way he did. He was 66 years old, fit and ate all the right foods. There needs to be more research made into this disease as once it gets hold of you there is no time for anything. He didnt even get a chance of having chemo. We were told he had 3 - 6 months to live, not even close. Although I live interstate from my family we saw each other every 6 - 8 weeks for a week or two at a time. My two boys almost 3 (twins) were the apple of my dad’s eyes, vica versa. This is one of the saddest things about it, is all he wanted to do was to see the boys turn 21. We had only been down there to visit 2 weeks before. He was admitted to hospital on the Thursday as he was having trouble breathing, from Thursday til we got there Sunday he had detiorated terribly. He fought all the way til the end, never shed a tear. He waited til we got there to see the boys for one last time. He passed 27 hours after my arrival with my mum, my neice and I by his side. I will never forget how much I wanted him to just go to sleep and no longer be in pain. I feel for all of you who have lost and who have this terrible disease.
Rest now dad, love you allways xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

]]> Comment on Info About Pancreatic Cancer & Why It Sucks by Judy Giles http://runningformymom.wordpress.com/pancreatic-cancer-why-it-sucks-ass/#comment-4291 Judy Giles Fri, 13 Jun 2008 13:25:47 +0000 https://runningformymom.wordpress.com/pancreatic-cancer-why-it-sucks-ass/#comment-4291 All cancer is evil, but Pancreatic cancer is the most cruel - I am 49 and just lost my beautiful Mum yesterday at 2.50am. She IS my best friend and I am utterly devastated. After 8 months of 'stupid' investigations they finally did a CT scan - result PC stage 1V diagnosed on 24th Aug 2007, Mum was given weeks. My Mum endured a chemo trial and hundreds of needles in her arms for my sake, she fought stoically and courageously. I watched my 80 year old Mum who was a 'young' fit and healthy lady deteriorate to a shell, on Tuesday night she was in agony and I was sobbing with helplessness. Mum was breathless and ached everywhere, she didn't know where to put herself. I watched her die, she kept saying my name over and over and told me she was sorry as she didn't think she was going to get over this - it was not 'peaceful' and I cannot get the last images out of my head. My dear beloved Mum...........life is so empty............. Yes you're right - someone said - bad things do happen to good people - my Mum was kind and gentle and always thinking of others, she is my soul mate. I think Pancreatic Cancer shoule be highlighted more as not many people know what a killer it is. God Bless all of you who have suffered as I am suffering now. xxxxx God Bless you Mum - I love you with all my heart xxx All cancer is evil, but Pancreatic cancer is the most cruel - I am 49 and just lost my beautiful Mum yesterday at 2.50am. She IS my best friend and I am utterly devastated. After 8 months of ’stupid’ investigations they finally did a CT scan - result PC stage 1V diagnosed on 24th Aug 2007, Mum was given weeks. My Mum endured a chemo trial and hundreds of needles in her arms for my sake, she fought stoically and courageously. I watched my 80 year old Mum who was a ‘young’ fit and healthy lady deteriorate to a shell, on Tuesday night she was in agony and I was sobbing with helplessness. Mum was breathless and ached everywhere, she didn’t know where to put herself. I watched her die, she kept saying my name over and over and told me she was sorry as she didn’t think she was going to get over this - it was not ‘peaceful’ and I cannot get the last images out of my head. My dear beloved Mum………..life is so empty………….

Yes you’re right - someone said - bad things do happen to good people - my Mum was kind and gentle and always thinking of others, she is my soul mate.

I think Pancreatic Cancer shoule be highlighted more as not many people know what a killer it is.
God Bless all of you who have suffered as I am suffering now. xxxxx God Bless you Mum - I love you with all my heart xxx

]]> Comment on Info About Pancreatic Cancer & Why It Sucks by Cathy http://runningformymom.wordpress.com/pancreatic-cancer-why-it-sucks-ass/#comment-4275 Cathy Tue, 10 Jun 2008 04:19:35 +0000 https://runningformymom.wordpress.com/pancreatic-cancer-why-it-sucks-ass/#comment-4275 God bless to all who have lost loved ones to this desbicable disease. Right now I'm on the internet trying to find some answers on how to make my sister in law more comfortable. She was dx in April. I think hospice might help but how do you bring it up? She lost her younger sister to PC last year, apparently it runs in her family. How bad does that suck. Just last year she was taking care of her sister so now she knows exactly what is going to happen to her....it is almost too much to bear. God bless to all who have lost loved ones to this desbicable disease. Right now I’m on the internet trying to find some answers on how to make my sister in law more comfortable. She was dx in April. I think hospice might help but how do you bring it up? She lost her younger sister to PC last year, apparently it runs in her family. How bad does that suck. Just last year she was taking care of her sister so now she knows exactly what is going to happen to her….it is almost too much to bear.

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]]> Comment on Info About Pancreatic Cancer & Why It Sucks by Jules http://runningformymom.wordpress.com/pancreatic-cancer-why-it-sucks-ass/#comment-4266 Jules Mon, 09 Jun 2008 03:21:06 +0000 https://runningformymom.wordpress.com/pancreatic-cancer-why-it-sucks-ass/#comment-4266 Just wanted to say this cancer steals people from us way too damned young. My daughters lost their grandpa to this. He used to drive 3 hours to see them dance in a recital for 5 minutes. The last smile he gave anyone he gave to them. They still cry about him once a week and it's been almost a year. God I wish we could do research with stem cells to make progress on this ugly and wicked beast. Bless you. Just wanted to say this cancer steals people from us way too damned young. My daughters lost their grandpa to this. He used to drive 3 hours to see them dance in a recital for 5 minutes. The last smile he gave anyone he gave to them. They still cry about him once a week and it’s been almost a year. God I wish we could do research with stem cells to make progress on this ugly and wicked beast. Bless you.

]]> Comment on Info About Pancreatic Cancer & Why It Sucks by Crystal http://runningformymom.wordpress.com/pancreatic-cancer-why-it-sucks-ass/#comment-4229 Crystal Tue, 03 Jun 2008 07:43:10 +0000 https://runningformymom.wordpress.com/pancreatic-cancer-why-it-sucks-ass/#comment-4229 I posted a few months ago and came back here today because I thought about my Dad really hard today... about my visits with him while he was getting sicker and sicker. This page is such a comfort, because I know you all hate pancreatic cancer as much as I do. It's much more heartfelt when you know someone knows exactly what you went through. My dad, Frank, was a wonderful person who died January 21, 2006 while I whispered in his ear "You will always be my favorite guy." I honor him and all of your loved ones tonight. CCC I posted a few months ago and came back here today because I thought about my Dad really hard today… about my visits with him while he was getting sicker and sicker. This page is such a comfort, because I know you all hate pancreatic cancer as much as I do. It’s much more heartfelt when you know someone knows exactly what you went through. My dad, Frank, was a wonderful person who died January 21, 2006 while I whispered in his ear “You will always be my favorite guy.”

I honor him and all of your loved ones tonight.

CCC

]]> Comment on Info About Pancreatic Cancer & Why It Sucks by John http://runningformymom.wordpress.com/pancreatic-cancer-why-it-sucks-ass/#comment-4170 John Thu, 15 May 2008 04:49:41 +0000 https://runningformymom.wordpress.com/pancreatic-cancer-why-it-sucks-ass/#comment-4170 None of you are alone, believe me. When such a terrible disease strikes someone you love so dearly, we often have nowhere else to run but the internet. Too all of you who have or have lost someone to pancreatic cancer, at this very moment, day after day, I feel for you. I lost my Father Dennis to Pancreatic cancer in September of 2007. I just got out of the Army 2 years before and became best friends with him until this nasty, bitch fucking cancer tore him away from me, his grandson and entire family. Every time I think about him, all I can do is shake my head. I too hate pancreatic cancer. I fucking miss you, man. None of you are alone, believe me. When such a terrible disease strikes someone you love so dearly, we often have nowhere else to run but the internet. Too all of you who have or have lost someone to pancreatic cancer, at this very moment, day after day, I feel for you. I lost my Father Dennis to Pancreatic cancer in September of 2007. I just got out of the Army 2 years before and became best friends with him until this nasty, bitch fucking cancer tore him away from me, his grandson and entire family. Every time I think about him, all I can do is shake my head. I too hate pancreatic cancer. I fucking miss you, man.

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